WHO I AM
Hi friends! My name is Genevieve – I’m so glad you stumbled upon my blog! I live in Chicago with my amazing cat Pax, but I’m taking a hiatus to travel around the world for an indeterminate amount of time. This is my latest project of a lifetime of many, and it came about after a series of difficult changes in my life in the past year.
HOW I GOT HERE
I call myself an artist because I love telling stories and I have a compulsion to constantly create. I grew up dancing in my ballet studio, and it was there that I discovered my love for performing. The natural progression led to me to musical theatre, straight theatre, and to the ultimate goal of Being An Actor.
This past year has been really tough for me. I started having a lot of issues with my anxiety, which I didn’t even realize I had. I’ve always been rather high strung, but I think it was a combination of waitressing to pay my rent and uncertainty about my future and career that started to get to me. At the time, I was also in the throes of a disintegrating five-year relationship which was piling even more stress and self-doubt onto me. I couldn’t eat, I lost a lot of weight, and I was generally sick, depressed, and unhappy. I eventually realized that this anxiety was something that wasn’t going to just go away on its own, and was screwing with my health and happiness too much for me to continue to ignore. With the support and help of my incredible cousins and parents, I found a therapist and a psychiatrist and began the process to feeling like myself again. I also discovered that the birth control I was using at the time – the Mirena IUD – was also very likely contributing to my anxiety, and got it removed.
I started feeling better. I was starting to feel myself again. I went on a trip to Ecuador with my cousins, two of my best friends in the world, and had an epiphany: I was so happy while I was traveling. All the things that were completely out of my control and taking over my life – the stress about not getting enough auditions or booking enough work, the stress about whether or not I was being an artist, the stress about where I was going with my life – it all just went away. I was living in the moment and having more fun than I had had in years. It was during this trip that my partner and I split for good- a mutual decision for both of our health and happiness. But so scary and so stressful. I had to find a new apartment, new roommates, and I felt like I was throwing away something that we had been building together for so long. We had so much stuff that we had bought together; I didn’t want any of it. I just gave him everything and left. I didn’t want any reminders of what we had been, and I wanted to start over.
WHERE I’M GOING
Now, in my mid-to-late-twenties, I’ve reached a point in my life where honestly I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WANT! I’ve always been a super Type-A kind of girl, needing to be in control of my life, responsible, and making decisions that were leading me closer to my goal. But I’m trying to let some of that go. In the world of improv, the most important words are “YES, AND.” You take whatever your partner gives you, no matter how crazy or ridiculous it is, and you accept it as truth (the “yes”) and then you build on it, make it into something more (the “and”). And this is my new philosophy on how I should be living my life. Saying yes to opportunities, even if they aren’t exactly what I had in mind. Saying yes to what the world is giving me, saying yes to myself, and saying yes to nowhere (THAT’S THE NAME OF THIS BLOG YOU GUYS.)
So I decided to travel the world…or whatever you want to call it that sounds less dorky than that. I’m sick of playing it safe. I have one life to live, and I’m going to make it worth something by going on all the adventures I can and making decisions for myself. I’m terrified. I get lost really easily and also I’m bad at learning languages and I get scared being alone sometimes. But screw it. Here I go.